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May 28, 2012

COURAGE #4

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JUST THOUGHT THIS WAS THE FUNNIEST PICTURE …LOL

BE THE CHEESE…WHY NOT , RIGHT?

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May 25, 2012

Friday Fun Facts

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5/25/2012

1.  8th grade graduate :

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2. A Song:

 

3. PhotoQuote:

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4.  A poem:

A lesson in courage for me…poetry style

(yes I have 3 blogs..lol)

http://poetsprose1956.wordpress.com/2012/05/24/release/

 

5. The run down:

Daughter graduated 8th grade Tuesday night, we made the picture board, organized the photo book, she sang and played piano for the ceremony, she also sang in a trio, she just got back from a 3 day class trip over last weekend, yesterday we sang together in the Jr. high talent show. This little Christian school has been her place to go for 8 years.

 

6.  Then and Now

Almost 14 years ago 
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and now

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7.  Mother and Daughter Duet for School Talent Show:

ITS US!!!

8.  Quote Tina Shared on F of L -FB page:

“By starving emotions we become humorless, rigid and stereotyped; by repressing them we become literal, reformatory and holier-than-thou; encouraged, they perfume life; discouraged, they poison it.”
~Joseph Collins

 

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9. Some tidbits done in Mrs. 4444 style:

*I got lettuce to cut in my garden…

love me a good salad.

*Kitty got some little mouse toys

so he is happy!!

* Dog got a new collar so she isn’t yanking herself loose on the chain outside anymore. Hurray!

* Little Mister got a new Booster seat for the car, since he dismantled the latch for the last car seat. Smile with tongue out Little stinker!

* Heading to see my dad in a few days and then to see my sister after that… YIPPY!!!

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10. Thought:

Aren’t Fridays WONDERFUL!!! no facts next week …I’m outta town!! :0)

Have a great Friday!!

STARLA

May 24, 2012

To Let it go…

Courage is an interesting word to stick to for a month. Life is so mundane that courage seems useless at times…and then the lesson came.

While at practice with our worship team I messed up on my finger cue’s  for the band to follow. Right after the song finished my husband calls out “STARLA! you have to pay attention to your fingers because we are following them!. “ I have heard that tone before. You know the one I am talking about …the CORRECTOR tone. All I could do short of complete implosion from embarrassment was calmly through slightly gritted teeth say “ I know. “  I got through the last to songs and went straight to the bathroom.

While passing fellow church members, who are all BTW cheerily saying “good morning!” I manage to eek out a tight lipped courtesy smile while bolting for the bathroom door. My heart was pounding. I was angry. I was in full repression of emotion. I was so afraid that if I did speak I would break like a dam and a flood of emotion would erupt. I prayed to God to help me to Let it go, “Lord help me, I forgive him, I let it go.” I walk to the mirror and my eyes tell the story. I had not let it go. It had me! I was fully in the grip!

I was suppose to get up on stage in less than a half an hour and minister to the people, allow God to flow through me. How was I going to do that when I had just put a cork in it! I was upset and now I was even upset with myself. I went to the coffee bar hoping to sip some fire of the Lord into my soul that could overcome this shadowy cloud that had just taken me over.

Then a sweet lady named Jennifer at church asked me in full sincere tone and smile “how are you doing this morning?” I look at her…blankly as the slow token words fell from my lips “ I’m good “ as I cringed in mid – sentence. She kept eye contact and that’s when it happened. I felt courage rise up in me and I said “ I’m not ok, my husband corrected me in front of everyone and I am angry, It was embarrassing!” Then the most amazing thing happened. I felt relief.     I look at her and all I could say was       “thank you!” I couldn’t believe how much better I felt. I had  – LET GO. I had always heard that statement Let go and Let God and thought ok so easier said than done. But I was totally trying to control my emotions and how people perceived me and I was failing miserably. I looked cold, disinterested, and detached. But once I let go of what I was trying to control God filled me with His joy again….and it was over.

I made a quick mental note of what had just happened and when the next situation happened where I felt like a ball of emotional repressed mess, and I was asked “ If I was tired or something?” (because they could tell I was not ok) I simple looked them in the eye and said how I was feeling… and it was over. Light-ness returned.

I found courage! During Vulnerable month I expressed great fear over speaking my feelings… God is walking me down some interesting paths of learning! Open-mouthed smile

May 21, 2012

Courage #3

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May 18, 2012

Friday (Fun) Facts

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5/18/2012

 

1. A Song:

2. PhotoQuote:

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3.  A quote:

We are all shards in a mosaic of Grace.

-Ann Voskamp

4.  A Post:

I wrote a post about the Little Things that don’t get posted on Facebook or made into a post. Check it out!

http://starleeta.wordpress.com/2012/05/15/the-little-things/

 

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5.  Picture of the Week:

Tina and her husband Rick on Mother’s day

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6.  Something Funny:

 

LOL- that funny!

 

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7. Over the years I have made a TON of photo quotes :

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8. Around here:

Daughter is off on a 3 day trip with her class..she called last night. She bought some shoes Thumbs up What a girl!!! Rolling on the floor laughing

 

9.  Another Song ..just in case you didn’t hear it last week:

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I guess this week is focused on Photo’s  and Quotes…but hey cant get much better than those!! Open-mouthed smile

 

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

STARLA

May 15, 2012

Do you brace?

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I recently watched this movie and it is still speaking to me.

Buck is a man who works with horses. He is the guy that Robert Redford based his character on in the movie The Horse Whisperer.

In the movie Buck does a visual experiment with another man. They each hold the end of a rope. Buck talks about how horses can “ feel” what you are doing through slight movement. So he tugs on the rope and the man grabs tight. As Buck is talking he randomly tugs that rope and the man grabs tight. Then Buck just makes a movement but not exactly the same and the man braced for the tug.

While I am watching this I am thinking that is how we as humans are as well. When we get around someone and “feel” that familiar feel that we got as a kid or a teen when someone hurt us =WE BRACE!

Sometimes it looks like defensiveness, or anger, flight from the person, or some kind of lashing out. In these areas where these AUTO BRACING happen are areas where we do not trust.

I remember many time in the early years of my marriage my husband would “feel” to me like danger. I would brace hard and push back. My defensiveness was quick to rear its ugly head. Just like the horses did by stamping there feet and rearing up.  Many times he treated me just like Buck did the horse in this movie. Slowly backing the horse up with gentleness and love. All the while speaking truth and controlling his emotions. I had to be backed up into a corner a few times and told I am not going to hurt you.

God used my husband to teach me to trust again. I really didn’t see that because it happened slowly over many years but since watching this movie and looking back in reflection. I can see God’s hand teaching me His love and kindness. I can see how far God has walked me in trusting Him with my heart no matter what people may do.

May we have the courage to love those who brace against us until the rest in our love like we rest in the love of Christ.

Starla

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