Posts tagged ‘hurt’

July 22, 2013

a hidden treasure

Sometimes crap just happens! And isn’t it just like crap to happen from unexpected sources at unexpected times? Like when you are feeling all relaxed with yourself and peaceful!

Do you think the bible is right on that there is a enemy who is like a lion seeking whom he may devour? I think so!

The thing I am realizing most in this time of my life is that unresolved stuff attracts crap!

What kind of unresolved stuff? Well strangely good and bad stuff!

The bible says

Proverbs 27:5 Open rebuke is better than hidden love.

Love hidden is what got me. I got my feelings hurt because I wasn’t able to do something for and with the group of teens that I am a leader over. I was.. whether intentionally or unintentionally (it doesn’t matter now)  obstructed from fulfilling what I wanted to do. I felt hurt that I was passed over. I felt left out and a bit uncared for. All those emotions are tied to emotions and feeling that I received wounds from when I was a young girl. So why hidden love? Well,  in the word of the 80’s rock bank Cinderella  “you don’t know what you got till its gone?” Now,I know they aren’t really gone gone…but the opportunity is gone, the time is gone,that moment is gone.  But through it I realized just how much I love my teens @ SMAC.

Of course I spoke my mind also. Told of the one who stung me that it hurt. I was honest. I made my way through forgiveness and asking to be forgiven since I so very much coveted the spot that was given to another. I also found my way to blessing them. Thanking them for what they did for my teens.

I could have held on to my upset….but I didn’t.

I had right to it …I am their leader! but what kind of leader would I be if I allow the enemy to use my past mental and emotional tape on me and then use me to unleash anger and hurt on others.

Right now I am just thankful for the perspective…

I found LOVE hiding under that hurt!

Every emotional hurt has it’s treasure – FIND IT!

It helps bring reality to the surface and lets grace cover the pain.

December 19, 2011

Washing feet

John 13: 10-17 Jesus answered, “Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet; their whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.”  For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean. When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them.  “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am.  Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet.  I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you.  Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him.  Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

Jesus came and BATHED us when He died on the cross for us….


yet here is says –Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet.

Feet …where you go , what you do, the way u choose

It says we are to wash one another’s feet.

Have you ever “tripped” over other peoples feet …have you ever misunderstood or been misunderstood…I have. Tripping over and getting angry over their choices…where they go, what they do, and the way they chose to do it.

To wash feet is a humble service – wash …cleanse…

take the dirt away

It takes humility to forgive and wash hurts that people do to you away. It takes humility to consider that u could be wrong. To choose to ask before assuming. To not be angry and gossip. To not have a pity party and re-stir the hurt you feel creating more pain. To choose to be thankful and grateful instead of envious and jealous. To not reject when you don’t understand, when you just don’t get someone’s behavior. To not reject when you have been rejected. It take humility to not be selfish.

All these things are things we trip over….the feet of another.

We need washing ….and we need to wash others

talk about it

deal with it

communicate wants and needs

learn to live in unity

Drama, hate, anger, chaos, division ….are on the road that we walk. We may step in a pile of crap sometimes but what are we going to do ….

wash our feet ?


Kill the one who crapped there?

( Jesus said Hate was just like Murder)

Lets be a servant like Christ and wash feet!

Friendships of Love

December 2, 2011

Getting Crabby!


Philippians 2:1414 Do all things without grumbling and faultfinding and complaining (against God) and questioning and doubting [among yourselves],

I have this thing in myself and you do to…called EGO (SELF)

It’s that thing that gets out of control with pride and thinks it deserves everything it wants, causes chaos and division, reeks havoc on other people through constant battering of their ears with non stop complaining and blaming, accusing and excusing. 

Ever been there when you feel like someone has hit the repeat button?

It is almost like this CRABBY attitude, is used to “GET MY WAY!”

We are not 3 years old….

throwing fits and behaving like spoiled children, saying things with no regard to how it may hurt others….bullying and pulling manipulations tactics is for unbelievers.

What ever happened to “ If you don’t have anything nice to say , don’t say anything at all!”

Well I am coming to the conclusion that people who want to be like Christ may have twisted this one!

This statement is for the OFFENDERS!

We are not suppose to be SILENT in the face of such injustice….

We are to correct in love….but the problem has come that the offenders cause you to become silent and think that statement is for you because they call you judgmental, say that you aren’t being loving, the you are acting all high and mighty. When the truth is …


When you refuse to hear …. that you hurt someone – it’s PRIDE.

When you find yourself making excuses for your behavior when confronted – it’s PRIDE.

When you start blaming others instead of take responsibility for what you have done or where part of – It’s PRIDE.

When you accuse others of just being mean and unloving when they bring something to your attention, when you know these are people who love you. – It’s PRIDE.

So stop using the CRABBY PUSH —Putting Ur Self Higher to get your PRIDE ON!!

and instead walk in HUMILITY.

Colossians 3:12-14

12 Clothe yourselves therefore, as God’s own chosen ones (His own picked representatives), [who are] purified and holy and well-beloved [by God Himself, by putting on behavior marked by] tenderhearted pity and mercy, kind feeling, a lowly opinion of yourselves, gentle ways, [and] patience [which is tireless and long-suffering, and has the power to endure whatever comes, with good temper].

13 Be gentle and forbearing with one another and, if one has a difference (a grievance or complaint) against another, readily pardoning each other; even as the Lord has [freely] forgiven you, so must you also [forgive].

It goes both way, everything is not always one sided…because there are times when we don’t deal with hurts and it turns into resentment …and the other person maybe coming to talk to you about your mouth but your unforgiving heart has hardened against them and you may need to be honest ….either way, what ever it is …if PRIDE is an issue : LETS GET IT RIGHT!

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